Elyssa

elyssa20 @ 2032-02-26T15:32:00

2009-02-26T20:43:13Z

Gridlock of thoughts and words-
It's been so long Since I've gushed out my feelings from this flask-
I can't deny that I'll miss you.
Twas my 'best kept secret' that I'd hoped we'd collude
and release steam of sweet muses.
Instinct warned me of the impossibility of daydreams early on-

My free-spirited door has yet to be carved large enough
for me to creep through to those which spark my amorous muses.

'Tis a delusion of physical perfection, talent, and free spirit
that will only shed deciept upon the opening of my perpetually
ruminating and self-defeating stagnant gate.

Rolling Darkness has his way.

elyssa20 @ 2032-02-18T21:31:00

2009-02-19T02:32:11Z

that is part of my humor, but i respect people that can laugh at themselves
they tend to be more fun
and laid back
or it's just my style
i don't 'try' to do it, per se

part of it is that i know i've been sheltered
and there's al ot i don't know
i acknowledge this
there's a lot i haven't explored
so i don't pretend to know all
and to have felt all
so how serious can i take myself?

elyssa20 @ 2030-12-21T09:34:00

2008-12-21T14:35:13Z

The snow pretty much fucked up all my weekend plans. It is the opposite of the joy and freedom snow days used to give me when I was younger.'

elyssa20 @ 2028-10-09T18:43:00

2008-10-09T22:44:53Z

I got mad at him for having a hickie. I feel stupid. I need to be over him and focus on something bigger...something more important. :(

elyssa20 @ 2028-09-23T17:04:00

2008-09-23T21:18:43Z

Times a changin'
You're a changin'
I'm a changin'

A new version
of an old product

A coercion
of exhausted luck

A reincarnation
into a new form

of comeroderie
is torn

by you
for me
destroys me

I yearn for reincarnation
of former you

though hold determination
to not let my heart spew

For grave fear
I will lose...

once again
cry again
waste time again

Gone is the word
Gone is the word
Move on is the word

elyssa20 @ 2028-07-18T19:14:00

2008-07-18T23:17:33Z

I saw 3 bands and asserted my independence. I took a cab even though my parents thought it was a waste of money. The Hard Lessons did a mostly acoustic and bluesy set at the art fair, which was a little something different, yet still fun. They also remembered my article/convo on them from a year ago, which was nice, since I hadn't bothered to talk to them since.

I was just ordered to write a happy entry because I'm usually only motivated to write here when I'm sad. Tonight will either be karaoke, swing dancing, or the Dark Knight. NOthing to be sad about now. WOO HOO!

elyssa20 @ 2027-03-22T15:52:00

2008-03-22T19:53:27Z

Players only love you when they're playin'.

elyssa20 @ 2027-03-04T19:26:00

2008-03-05T00:32:41Z

So, when I was bored/procrastinating, I created my own 'international holiday' on Facebook, just because I see all these stupid 'holidays' someone dreams up like International Kiss and Italian Day, that get 1,000's of people to RSVP to them. I figured it was MY TURN to make up my own holiday, so I decided to make International Spin in a Circle Day---COMPLETELY unintelligent and pointless, needless to say. So far, I have 7 confirmed participants, 2 of which are complete strangers (which dorkily excites me) and 3 maybe participants. I'm finding that yes, it is true....Any event with the word 'international' on Facebook has followers, even if they just RSVP and don't participate. If I can achieve this in 4 minutes online, I can only IMAGINE what a cult leader could achieve after years scheming up a plan. And what better tool for this cult leader than Facebook?

elyssa20 @ 2027-03-01T13:36:00

2008-03-01T18:37:25Z

I love having a Mac. It makes life a lot easier. I have no appetite for a PC again, I don't think

elyssa20 @ 2027-02-15T00:25:00

2008-02-15T05:26:23Z

I am SO SICK of hearing of campus shootings....QUIT IT ALREADY!

OMFG

2008-02-14T18:07:39Z

"I am still in training..but hopefully, this will be my last training Cuddle Party and then....if I get their final approval...you know what I will be????

chuckles.... a professional cuddler...how would you like to put THAT on your resume? (actually if you are interested in doing so, they have another training in May in MN so take a peek at their site for information on that too) "

elyssa20 @ 2027-02-12T22:43:00

2008-02-13T03:44:40Z

I'm taking my first guitar lesson this Saturday. Gonna refine my skills a bit, since I'm spending all this time playing and recording now cause it makes me HAPPY (and it's NOT a BOY!)

elyssa20 @ 2027-02-10T04:14:00

2008-02-10T09:15:02Z

I just planned a birthday that shall be an interesting mix of crowds, indeed.

elyssa20 @ 2027-01-22T11:38:00

2008-01-22T16:39:47Z

I'm so tired. It's blatantly obvious that the female friends in my life are the only consistent, reliable ones. I need to think of a female equivalent to "bros before hoes."

Another Dead On Horoscope

2007-12-27T03:12:46Z

One of your friends is seeking a bit more independence in your relationship, and it could feel like they are pushing you away. Do not let your fears get the better of you. Just because they are being vague about future plans or saying 'no' a little bit more often to your social invitations does not mean that they are changing how they feel about you. Learning how to be alone is a skill everyone should learn, and they are in the midst of their lesson now. Give them space.

You cannot go forward when you're looking in the rearview mirror -- a bad accident is sure to happen, and it might be one you can't walk away from. So pay attention to what is going on around you and focus on the here-and-now, today. Yesterday is old news, and it will only distract you from seeing where you need to go. Let go of old ideas and lost opportunities and make room for new challenges and new hopes. There are things beyond your control. The sooner you accept that, the better.

elyssa20 @ 2026-12-17T04:49:00

2007-12-17T09:49:49Z

MISERABLE CAN'T SLEEP MISERABLE MIGHT FAIL

elyssa20 @ 2026-12-14T04:15:00

2007-12-14T09:15:50Z

I'm still up at 4:15 AM and my exam is due at 5 pm later today. 13 hours from now, I will only have 2 exams left. I can't wait til this heap of work is over!

elyssa20 @ 2026-12-13T23:57:00

2007-12-14T04:58:01Z

For once, I'm actually ready to go HOME for the holidays.

elyssa20 @ 2026-12-10T19:40:00

2007-12-11T00:41:17Z

I'm depressed and whill eat chocolate I think. BAH HUMBUG!!!! I hate the holidays when I havta go to a tense house and be preoccupied with being rejected. I wish I could just be sedated for that time.

elyssa20 @ 2026-12-04T22:32:00

2007-12-05T03:33:22Z

I hate that I say stuff I don't mean when I'm PMSing. I feel terrible. I hate missing someone I'm not sure will talk to me again.

I can be an accidental jerk too much.

elyssa20 @ 2026-12-04T16:41:00

2007-12-04T21:41:52Z

I want my fucking energy back already. I hate feeling very lethargic. This was a stupid, preventable problem.

elyssa20 @ 2026-12-04T01:15:00

2007-12-04T06:15:52Z

I shouldn't say, "I'mnot calling you again" unless I really mean it.

elyssa20 @ 2026-12-03T23:44:00

2007-12-04T04:45:01Z

I have class off tomorrow...although I'm still a bit exhausted from sat. night's ordeal.

elyssa20 @ 2026-11-30T01:56:00

2007-11-30T06:56:46Z

I just applied to graduate!!! WOO HOO!!!!!!

Random/streaming thoughts

2007-11-30T04:05:40Z

It's weird how I actually got a message on here haha. Man, funny how some people rub you the wrong way. I should take pics of my new haircut, even though it's like the June one. Above Ground is a good place.